Just heard that someone’s (from my office) boyfriend had just passed away out of sudden. As an outsider, it is a shocking news, I can’t imagine the feeling and the pain that she is going through right now. It is never easy to accept the fact that someone you knew is no longer around, especially if he/she is somebody who meant a lot to you in your life.

There’s nothing we can do about this uncertainty, what we can really do, is to cherish the people around you. You never know what is going to happen the next second. You might not have the chance to tell them how much they mean to you, how much you love them..

If you are reading this, I want to tell you, I really do cherish you and that you really mean a lot to me.

Even wordpress has changed its look. This shows how long ago was my last blog entry.

Sorry girls. At this time, i should be at bugis shopping with you all. But once i stepped into my room, i jus find it too diff to get my butt out of my room. Too lazy to do anything but jus stare into my computer screen.

CNY is just round the corner and i am not prepared for it at all. I dont mean that i need to prepare red packets, not that i need to prepare the house for visitors, those are the jobs for my mum. I have no clothes to wear, no new shoes, no new bag. That’s just seems to be so impossible. In the past, i will definitely buy a new pair of shoes and clothes. This jus shows CNY is no longer what it used to be like. Not the way i remembered it as when i was much younger.

Anyway, i am still looking forward to CNY. Have to search through my wardrode for something to wear.

Anyway, no point dwelling on something that’s over. Still got 5 more to go, 2 more weeks to endure. Somehow, i have lost the motivation to study. I felt as if yesterday is the last paper. It’s really so tiring, mugging and mugging, day and night.

I really regretted taking CS. This module really makes me go mad and stressed. Partially it could be this module that makes me really no mood to study. Though i have S/U-ed this module, but i really scare i wont do well. I don’t wish to repeat this module. Really wish i can clear my AHSS module this time round, once and for all, get done with it.

If only, a blink of eyes, and exams are all over.

Looking forward to the buffer section with my dearest J’s.

I missed the laughters of KS1 and KS2. With them around, you wont find a moment of quietness, a moment of stress.

I miss YOU so much, really really alot.

exams are jus round the corner..which means i have to start mugging and mugging..means my sleeping time is shorter..argh!! this is the period i hate the most..my stress level is rising..

3 more weeks, i will be done with all this mugging..looking forward to dec..

meeting up my dearest darlings later on..cant wait for it..after tonight will have to get down to serious work le..it’s a little pity that ah lee cant make it for tonight..

If only you can appear in front me now or i can appear in front of you…

From now till end of sch term, i’m having quizzes every week, expect week 11. But then, the following week, i’m having 3 quizzes, so, how can i rest.

Sometimes, i really feel so tired after a long day at school. By the time i reached home, i am just too drained..too restless to do anything.

Stressed? Yes, i am really feeling so stressed. All the stressed have been building up in me, since the very first day of school.

A lot of times, i really wish i can see darling whenever i wan, but then i know possible for that to happen. Seeing you after a long day in school, really cheer me up a lot, and during the time when i’m with you, the stressed just don seems to be there. I have always enjoyed and treasured those moment that i spent with you.

At homes, whenever i studied till so stressed up, looking at these really motivates me.

But, it still better to see the giver in person.

Right now, it just motivated me to get back to my study for monday quiz.

a friend of mine, once told me to write 3 letters to myself. one is write about what u wish to achieve now, second one is write about what you wish to achieve when u started working, and the last is write about what you wish to achieve after working for three years. then open the letters at those specific time and see if you have really achieved your goals or are your goals too childish.

i find it rather meaningful, but then i did not do it. becoz i really don know what to write and what i wish to achieve.

right now, i only wish to pull up my gpa and get a good cert. what should i do after graduate? what kind of job should i look for? do i really wish to work in this line, chemistry? i guess i will give it a try..since i have already studied chemistry for..7 years?

i wish to drive my dream car (red mini cooper), stay in my dream house ( with many rooms, walk-in closet). Like i say..those are my dream. there are unrealistic goals. i don think it can actually come true, unless there’s miracle.

my sis told me, it’s not easy to own a car in singapore, ya..it’s true..but then i will still wan to try my best and own one..definitely not my dream car, even if i slog my whole life, i dun think i can ever own it, expect the model car. you shall wait and see okay..maybe one day i will be waiting at the airport with my car and pick you up when you’re back for US. Hee..

Have a house of my own, a place where i can relax after a day of hardwork, if i can also own a bath-tub in toilet, that would be great.

enough of day-dreaming..it’s better to be realistic, study well right now and work towards my goals.